More to You - Part 2 (Merlin Comes to Visit)
Dear Reader, hello from the Oregon Coast. I have spent this past week reintegrating after a trip to Arkansas, where I met with like-hearted souls. We gathered together to anchor in the fresh energies arriving as the New Earth births itself in co-creation with all life, including us. Since my return, I notice a new calm has swept over me. Before I left, I had been feeling exhausted and overwhelmed for some time. Lately, I have felt deeply relaxed, and my body has been asking for lots of downtime. Having worked with energy for much of my life, I can distinguish different states. My current state is one of rest in the name of integration.
I can feel that old ways of being, old ways of doing, and old energies not inherent to my organic nature have slipped away. It is as if my body is relaxing into a lightness of being after having carried such burdensome energies for so long. Transformation takes energy, and it also takes energy to welcome in that which informs the space now vacant by what has been left.
Lao Tzu, the well-known Toaist master, said, “Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.” That is how I feel. I am nature. As my natural nature is unburdened by everything, not nature, I have stepped into a different stream. In this stream, the flow of energy is very different. It is very visceral, and I can feel it has permeated many levels and layers of my being.
When a person has embodied something, they need very few words to explain it. The most sacred things in life are often ineffable; they are merely to be lived. Sometimes, the more we chisel away at something sacred with words, its essence slips out the back door in the process. So I will end my description here in honor of that. Suffice it to say; this newfound peace is much welcomed. It is like finding a river after many incarnations in a parched desert.
Last week I was broaching the subject of being much more than you know or more than meets the eye. I ended up speaking mostly about the power of words and the biology of belief - how our thoughts and beliefs directly affect cellular behavior. If you read it, I wonder if you have spent any time contemplating words and thoughts and how they create your reality. If you have not read it, I highly recommend it.
A large part of the reason I write these blog posts is to give voice to a field of energy. It is a voice that beckons you to leave everything you have been taught behind you and embrace your inner compass, your gnosis, the voice of your highest self, your oversoul - your heart. I write this for people freshly on the path of awakened consciousness and the old timers too. We are all in this together, and no matter where we stand on the upward rising spiral, our wisdom is useful. As a whole, we are a multifaceted diamond. Each facet is of equal value with something unique to offer. The phase of evolution that humanity is going through right now is massive! I am in awe and wonder on a regular basis that I am here during this phenomenal shift in consciousness.
Depending on where you put your focus, it can seem like the world is in big trouble. Remembering the power of our mind to create our reality and affect the world around us, I invite you (if you are holding this view) to shift your perspective. It may look like things are falling apart - that’s because they are, but that’s good! What is falling apart are structures and systems that have been in place for millennia, that were the infrastructure on which the game of illusion and false power rested.
As it falls apart, everything that is connected to that infrastructure also disintegrates, and things get messy and chaotic. It is only from that chaos that something new can be born. Each individual has the opportunity to plant seeds of their visions and creations into the New Earth grid (or into the world if that lingo does not work for you). In other words, as the old ideologies, belief systems, structures, and systems (based in fear, control, false power, and illusion) fall away, something new is being co-created. It is an ongoing conversation and co-creation between Earth and all of her inhabitants (children) - not just humans. Every living thing on Earth, from minerals to water, to plants and animals, are all moving through this shift together. We are dreaming of something new, and we are bringing those dreams into the physical world with our vision and with our creation powers. We are creator beings!
What I am saying is not new, but what is happening is spectacular. Cultures all over the world have prophesied these times. We were always meant to arrive exactly where we are. Nothing and no one could have stopped it from occurring. Granted, there are a lot of people still snagged in the old illusion because it is all they know. They are not victims of circumstance but products of their beliefs. Still believing what they learned in school or on their TV or from family members or in church, they remain heavily invested in the reality that has been created for them. If they read this, it might not even make sense, or they may think I am absolutely nuts.
That is fine. Everyone is exactly where they are meant to be right now, playing the perfect role. When you know that on a visceral level, it’s truly liberating. There are no minds to change, no one to convince. No one is wrong, right, or bad. Everything just is, and it’s perfect. Nothing to worry about, nothing to take personally, no impending doom - just the natural order of things. How many people were called crazy when they began to announce their discoveries and their own inner wisdom that was somehow incongruent with what the collective had agreed upon as concrete truth? There have been many throughout history.
Mary Magdalene, rather than being recognized as the feminine half of Christed consciousness in a human body, was instead labeled as a whore and dismissed for thousands of years, her teachings buried in a random pot somewhere in a desert in Egypt. Plato was labeled as nuts and locked away. Hypatia Of Alexandria (Egypt) was a Priestess. She had her own Mystery School. She was a mathematician, philosopher, and astronomer. She was murdered in cold blood in the streets of Alexandria under the Roman Empire.
All this is to say that throughout history, some of the most awakened and wise beings have been a target for those who wish to dominate and control others using force and power. Today, no matter what it looks like, those days are quickly coming to an end. So many veils have been peeled back. We have seen the false wizard behind the curtain. Globally and individually, we are waking up to the grand illusion. One by one, our capacities, power, abilities, and inner knowing are stirring inside us, uniting us in unity consciousness to proceed as creators of our own dreams and destiny without the need for a power structure for any reason or purpose.
A Real Wizard
Years ago, I was working with a German woman named Dr. Sabine Lucas. She was a Jungian analyst and depth psychologist trained at the Jungian Institute in Zurich. Her specialty was dream analysis. I became her house cleaner, and eventually, we began to barter for sessions. She continued to pay me for cleaning, and we traded three or four hours of my help for a one-hour session with her. She was still very bright, alert, and astute for her age, and she had lived through many incredible experiences, not to mention her knowledge of esoterica and spirituality was vast. She was the author of two books, she knew her way around the internet, she had a scalar machine, and she knew many healing modalities.
Needless to say, I was fascinated by her. I sought her out as an archaeologist of my mind. One of Carl Jung’s most often quoted sayings is, “Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life, and you will call it fate.” I had arrived at the age of fifty-plus years, and for all my digging, there still remained things hidden in my own mind that I wished to excavate in order to unlock my inner treasure and to find what was at the root of a few recurring themes I was noticing in my life.
The themes were not so exotic; most people in a human body have questions about these things. My questions were about the recurring themes around money, relationships, and depression. I was searching for the roots of these patterns. Later I would learn that much of the material for these themes was to be found in my genetic inheritance and suppressions in certain strands of my DNA. I will save this for a later date. For now, I will stick to the story of Merlin the Magician.
In our explorations together, Sabine led me to Merlin, the magician, quite by accident - there are no accidents. Sabine had something called a photron machine. In it, she could put different color gels, like slides, each containing a different color. Above the gels is a light, much like a strobe light. She is able to make the light flicker at varying speeds, from slower to very fast. I would lie under this light, and different colors and speeds of the flickering light would bring me into different brainwave states.
It can be likened to hypnosis. While in different brainwave states, Sabine would ask me questions. I can not remember what it is we were addressing that evening, but I do remember this. I was in a village. It was somewhere in Europe, which country, I can not say. I was in a village in the woods. The houses were wooden, with pitched roofs, some of them with moss on the rooftops. I learned that there had been soldiers coming to my village and killing people. In order to save them, I concocted a plan to poison the soldiers, and I succeeded.
Next, I found myself in front of a very old stone house. In front was a large wooden door encased in an archway. The door opened, and Merlin was standing there. He invited me into his kitchen. He asked me to sit at his kitchen table. Next to me was a fair-skinned woman with long dark brown wavy hair; she was me from the lifetime in which I had poisoned the soldiers. He asked me (her) if she knew what she had done was wrong. He explained that he understood why she had killed the soldiers and let her know that her actions were no different than the soldiers, even though her intention was to save people.
She said she knew that what she had done was wrong. He asked her to forgive herself. He told her that she had great potential and that he would like to work with her but that he would first be observing her for a time. For years I forgot about this experience. Fast forward to August 13th, 2022. It was the second year anniversary of my Father’s passing and the day before my birthday. I was at the home where I now reside in the front yard. I was sitting in a chair near a garden bed toward the back of the yard. It was morning.
Plain as day, Merlin appeared about six feet in front of me, sitting in a chair. He was smoking a pipe. He wore a lavender-colored robe with white stars sewn on it and a Wizard hat of the same fabric and pattern. He had a white beard and long white hair. “ You know why I appear to you like this, don’t you ?“ he said. “ I appear to you like this because this is what society has taught you that I look like.“ “In truth, I have many forms, I am Saint Germain, and I am also the violet flame, “he said.
Next, he got up and stood behind me, placing his hands on my shoulders. I could tell something was about to happen. I sensed it would be some sort of alchemy or deep healing. He asked me to lie on the ground face up, which I did. He stood on the ground behind my head. Next, he said, “Ok, we are going to take this galaxy and put it here, and we are going to take that galaxy and put it over there. I thought to myself, “ oh, he is rearranging my inner cosmos. I could see the galaxies he was rearranging. One was on my left and the other on my right, one further away and one closer. He switched their places, putting the one from the right on the left and vice versa.
A few months earlier, while deep in meditation, I saw the Universe inside myself, so this made perfect sense to me. I remember once, while in a Source Point Therapy workshop (a healing modality I used to practice), I suddenly realized that there was an entire cosmos inside the person that was on my treatment table. It dawned on me that it really is true, that each human being is an entire cosmos. The Taoists work with something called the microcosmic orbit, which is a pathway of energy that traverses a circular pathway along the governing and conception channels that run along the front and back of our torso.
As he worked on me, I could feel releases of blocked energy taking place in my solar plexus.
Next, he asked me to turn over and lie face down on the ground (all communication was telepathic). I turned over as he asked. For more than a few years now, I have been working on healing some physical and emotional scars and pain in my womb.
Merlin asked me to give all the pain, sorrow, and wounds that I was carrying in my womb to Mother Earth. “Let it all go, he said; release it, all of it, give it to her. She will use it as compost and fertilizer to create the New Earth. “ Keep releasing, let it all go,“ he said as I continued. I lay there until I could feel that I had released all of it. When I felt complete, I stood up. Still, in awe, I thanked Merlin. As I walked toward the front porch, I noticed that I have never felt so physically light in my entire life. It was almost like I could float.
A few days ago on You Tube, I was scrolling through Steven Nobel's guided meditations. I noticed he had a meditation with Merlin available. I went to read the description. My mind was blown when he said that the meditation came to be as a result of visit to Galastonbury in the U.K. . Steven wrote that while he was there, Merlin had put his hands on his shoulders.
You Are a Universe
Every week I write with the intention of reminding you that there is so much more to you than meets the eye. I ask you to look at yourself, to get in touch with your wounds, to question your beliefs, to remember who you are. It is nothing short of miraculous to be in a human body, on planet Earth, right now during the middle of a universal expansion of consciousness with Earth front and center.
No matter what you believe or don’t believe, there are beings all over the planet and galaxy witnessing what is playing out on Earth right now. We have a lot of help at this time. Our star brothers and sisters are rooting for us. They can assist us, but they can not do it for us. They can empower us, guide us, and help us in many ways, but they can not do it for us - WE ARE THE ONES. Only humans can do what we are doing right now.
We are ringing in a new era of Christed consciousness and love on this planet, and it will have ripple effects throughout the entire universe (multiverse, to be more accurate). Remember who you are; expect miracles. Zoom out and see the bigger picture. Then zoom in and allow yourself to be in a state of awe and gratitude for this gift of life. You ARE the nymph that turns into a dragonfly. You ARE the caterpillar that turns into a butterfly. You ARE a Universe that births new galaxies. Don’t sell yourself short. You are far more than you may realize.
The more I love myself and face my shadows, the more I open up to life, the more I begin to see who I truly am, and the more the world opens up to me. I am so grateful to myself to Merlin and to Mother Earth for being the great alchemist that she is. My account with Merlin is one of many accounts I have had in my life, and as the year's pass, they become more frequent. Why? Because I am opening up. With each fear you face, with each trauma you release, with each story you let go of, you open the door for more of yourself to enter.
You have more potential right now than you have had in any previous incarnation. This incarnation is more powerful than all your previous incarnations put together. Your Soul can make great strides at this time, so play all in and full out. Let yourself create, let yourself play, and let your imagination run wild. Plant the seeds of your vision for humanity and water them. Believe that anything you can imagine is possible - and be careful what you imagine. Remember, with our thoughts, we literally create the world, so if you do not want to see it in the world, do not imagine it. The biology of belief is real.
You are more space than matter, and your DNA strung together can travel to the sun and back sixty-six times. There is no junk DNA; there is only unexplored territory. The answer to everything is love. You have keys and codes inside you to unlock any mystery you wish. Pay attention to signs, symbols, and numbers, sacred geometry, the shapes of clouds, and the message of an ant crossing your path - everything is here to show you something. Begin to engage with the magic of life, and in turn, it will engage with you. Remember, you inform the field of energy just as much as it informs you - you teach each other all the time!
Have fun out there until we meet again. If you enjoy this blog, please help spread the word and share it with someone you think might appreciate it the way I appreciate you! Thank you, dear reader. If you have any magical experiences or any words at all you would like to share, please place them in the comments below. See you next week.
PS: A word about Sabine Lucas. Dr. Sabine Lucas is a fascinating woman with a fascinating life. She grew up in Germany during the second world war. She feels this life is her last incarnation on Earth. She has been working on her dreams since she was a young adult. In her dreams, she explores her past lives. She wrote a book about her explorations. I read it and found it to be very intriguing. If you wish to read it, you can find it here.
Creative Activations
How might you bring more magic into your life?
Name your most recent favorite experience. What was it about the experience that touched you? How did you feel?
Think about the life that you would like to create, but instead of thinking of what it would look like, describe how you would like to feel.
What can you do to be in the state you just described above? What are you willing to release in order to feel that? What are you willing to invite in, in order to feel that?
What would you like to give to Mother Earth that she can use for compost and fertilizer? Create your own sacred space where you can be alone in nature and release what you are ready to let go of. Thank Mother Earth for helping you transform whatever it is you are releasing; make her an offering.